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January 23, 2008

Try #4 right around the corner

Sorry I haven't been posting much. As much as I'm excited to get back to TTC I'm also really dreading it. It's been so nice not to have your every thought wrapped around getting pregnant and all the hard things about it are starting to re-enter my mind the closer we get to starting again.

So a second friend has gotten pregnant after having tried for 1 month. I'm so very happy for these friends but it's hard to handle at the same time. We have doctor's appointments, needles, pills, thermometers, stirrups, OPKs, monitors, scheduling, timing and lets not forget about the money. I guess I'm just jealous that this is such an ordeal for us and it's so easy for my friends. I think the fact that they are pregnant isn't helping me start this time around either because it just adds to that failure feeling if it doesn't work. It's hard not to compare yourself.

9 comments:

NotesFrom2Moms said...

I hope the break offered some good peace. If this month doesn't work for us we are taking a break - just to recenter. Good luck with number 4 and keeping a lid on the jealousy - it can be unbearable at times.

tiff said...

I'm glad you guys were able to have a break. This is so stressful. I understand about the jealousy. Granted, we've only tried once...but already had those feelings. "well, everything was PERFECT...the insems, the OPK's, everything!" And it didn't happen. And that is okay. But, doesn't stop me from having those feelings. SO, I understand. I am wishing you guys so much good luck for this next cycle. I really hope this is IT for you! Fingers crossed eh?

Renee and Janice said...

Breaks are always nice.. I know it was the best thing we have done. We are ready to get back in the TTC saddle, either February or March... still trying to decide. But, I know all about those friends getting pregnant so quickly. We have had 4 close friends get pregnant since we have been trying... very frustrating :(

Ali said...

I know the feeling. It's true it doesn't help to even think about the 'why them and not me', but the thought still creeps in. I just try to keep my eye on the goal. Sending lots of positive energy for this next try :-)

mrsbluemont said...

I hear you hun. I just wrote a jealousy post like this. It's so hard sometimes not to get angry at how unfair it is. Try to relax and not worry about anyone else. Your time will come. I'm sure 2008 is going to be a very special year for you! Good luck and don't stay away so long. I love the updates and will keep you in my thoughts. ox

j.k-c. said...

I am loving my break....even hard to read blogs somedays, so I also understand your absence. And I totally agree with the jealousy thing...it is so hard to feel it and so hard not to, know what I mean?
I am hopeful for you. 4 is still my lucky number even though it wasn't lucky for TTC for me...I will pass the luck on to you and keep my figners crossed that this is it for you! Take care and be gentle with yourselves.

amanda said...

Ugh. i hate those feelings, and i'm so sorry you're surrounded by them right now.
Know that we're thinking of you and wishing you the best of luck this time around.

EggDropBlogger said...

I know exactly how you feel. It is hard not to feel jealous when you have been at it for a while. Breaks are the best. It is so hard to start again because all of the anxiety resurfaces and get magnified--at least it does for me.

Stay Postive. I am cheering you on.

Holly said...

It is so hard not to compare yourself. But it will happen for you. We had a tough time watching friends get pregnant "by accident".

Here's to Try #4 being the one!