Whatever the Opposite of Nerves of Steel Is

This is always the worst part of this whole process for me. The few days before we go in for our fist follicle scan. I think if I really counted we have been put on a break more than we’ve been able to give it a go. The news that this cycle will not move forward has always been given during our first follicle scan, so needless to say I always go in with a nervous stomach and a small level of dread that the visit will end with bad rather than good news.

This try we have additional stress in that our other doctor’s mother-in-law is sick so we don’t know if we will even get to move forward this cycle. Long story short we have two doctors we have to work with and coordinate during this whole process. Our RE gets us ready for ovulation and then my OB/GYN does the insemination. The reason for this is the practice where our RE is has a rule that they don’t service “single women” which basically means no lesbians allowed. So after our follicle scan Wednesday I have to call the OB/GYN to see if she is going to be available to do the IUI this cycle. I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do if this gets canceled. There have been double digits of births and pregnancies since we started trying and I’m tired of being left of the sidelines.