Same. Same. Same.

Went to the RE this morning. No cysts so Try #8 is good to go. Starting on 100mg clomid again today with follicle scan next Wednesday. Looks likely that the next insemination will happen on my birthday! How fun is that?!?

Put a Fork in it

I'm officially calling Try #7 over. MAJOR temp drop this morning. We're surprisingly not too upset about this try not working. I think part of the reason is it took us so long to get to even try this time we were happy to just be in the game again. I have a call out to the RE to see what we're doing for Try #8. Birthday happy hour tonight for a friend is perfect timing too!!

Thinking It's a Nope

Chart is looking mighty nasty. Thinking I'm going to have to ditch 7 as being my lucky number. Doesn't the Chinese culture believe 8 is lucky?

Almost halfway

Thought I'd post my mall map again from a previous cycle. We are officially at 5DPO. This TWW has gone by pretty quickly. Keeping busy with errands, knitting and going to the movies has helped.

First

For the first time since this process begin I am the one having trouble dealing with the emotions of waiting and preparing. Being the supporter/partner in the insemination process has been easy for me. It is my job to help Melissa deal with the bad results and let downs we have had for the past 2 years.

As most of you know (until last week) we have not made it to the actual insemination step since last August. Now I think I am rusty because I am so terrified of the results more than ever. I am worried about Melissa and how she will take the news. Every time I see her upset because of a bad outcome it takes a little piece of me away. It is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. Watching her hurt so bad over something we don't have any control over is so difficult. We both think about how much more we can take and I am not sure what the answer is. I think Melissa worries about me now because the last couple weeks have been so hard on me.

I know I am being very negative, which is another first for me. But I have to prepare to protect Melissa. I just want to have a positive result so bad so we can start having a new focus.