Countdown

I looked at my watch yesturday and realized that I am getting married in a few weeks. I am nervous and excited. We have a lot of stuff to get done before we go to Canada. We have to finish buying things we are going to wear…like shoes.

We’re going to play it casual for the shoes and bring part of Austin to Canada. We’ve decided to wear flip flops. It’s an outside wedding and we are going to buy flip flops to match our outfits. I’m of course very excited because I’d much rather be comfortable than dressy. The day is already going to be a bit stressful with family and appointments.

I have to admit that it will be the first time both Melissa’s family and my dad have seen us in a loving light. We’re very respectful when we go to our family’s homes. I have to believe that it’s not only for their benefits but our own. I’ve never been a PDA type of person and that will never change. I’m not ashamed of who I am but I want everyone to be comfortable, even me. Oh well, now is the time where I’ll be able to express my feelings for Melissa and in a public forum. It’s our day and the people who care about us will be there and support our love.

The "traditional" couple gets their own dog and pony show and so will we. We deserve this and it will be a special and great day for our family. I wish everyone felt this way, but they don’t and personally it is their problem not mine. Nothing will get in the way our our day…except maybe the rain.

Stress Fest

We've been very bad bloggers and have not written in awhile. When things tend to get too stressful I tend to keep it in rather that let it out. I don't want to talk about it or write it down. I guess it just makes it too real. The latest drama has been with our passports. We have been waiting...and waiting..and waiting to get them in time for our trip. Thankfully they just lightened the restrictions on travel so it looks like Amy won't have a problem travelling.

Things are a little more complicated for me. I've been on the phone with the Canadian consulate, faxing documents to Quebec and trying to find ANYONE who will help me expedite my passport. Suffice it to say I'm still waiting.

On the baby front we are waiting as well. I made an appointment this afternoon for July 16th in order to go over my charts and start our plan of attack with the doctor. I'm very much looking forward to this visit because I'm curious about what she is going to say about my cycles. So far we have:

Cycle 1: Didn't ovulate
Cycle 2: Ovulated on CD27
Cycle 3: Currently on CD27 and no ovulation

Guess we'll see what happens on both the passport and ovulation front. I'm trying not to stress as it won't help either of these 2 things.

UPDATE: CD 28 and my monitor just went from Hign to Low. Looks like I'm not ovulating this month either :(

Little Black Cloud Over My Head

I have to admit I'm getting a little frustrated with my body's reaction to even a little bit of alcohol. I'm not even pregnant yet or really even TTC and I already feel like I'm on probation :( Last night was my monthly book club and I had 1 count'em...ONE margarita and my temp jumped from 97.06 to 97.66. These high spikes make it difficult to interpret my chart so I've had to stop any alcohol consumption.

I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself because tonight is LOST watching party night and tomorrow is my regular girls night happy hour and it just sucks being the only non drinking person in the group while having to come up with excuses for why you aren't drinking.

I think I'm just in a mood because Amy has been working nonstop so I haven't seen her in a few days, our A/C is broken and I've had an allergy induced headache for 4 days straight.

BLAH! Sorry to be a such a downer.

Family

Thank you everyone for all the well wishes for our July wedding. All the support has made me realize the importance of family and friends. Planning for a baby and this wedding has made me think long and hard about the importance of family. As a child family was very important to me. I lived by my family and it was important to me. It has shaped me to the person I am today.

On the other hand, Melissa was not raised around family. Her extended family lived in Holland while her parents moved to Canada. Although her family lived in Holland, Melissa’s parents made close friends which became family to Melissa. The question I have is should we raise our child by family members or create a family from existing friends? This decision is hard for me. I believe it is so important for our child to have family support around them as they grow up.

My family lives in Oklahoma where I will not even consider raising my child (for obvious reasons). So that leaves Calgary for a possibility. It is hard because Melissa and I love Austin but it is something we may have to consider in the future for our family.

Our special day

We are officially getting married on July 9th. My expectations at first were that Mel and I were going to go by ourselves and get married in Canada. Next, Melissa’s mom, sister, and sister’s boyfriend were going to the wedding. I decided to invite my family even though it was in Canada with no expectations and then…something great happened. My dad decided he would love to go and be apart of our special day.

In my eyes that is the best present anyone could give me. I never thought that anyone of my family would go or even take our wedding seriously and now my dad wants to be apart of our special day. Having him share in this is something I will never forget.

To be honest I was happy knowing that Melissa’s mom and sister were going to participate in our wedding. They are important to me and I care about them. They are family to me and have been for many years. Carly is just like a sister to me and Ineke is like a mom. Having my dad there is like a cherry on top of a sundae. Even though it will be a momentous day it still makes me sad that my entire family is unable to participate. My mom and sister will not be in attendance but having my dad there will help make our day more special. I hope our families know and understand how much it means to us to have them share and celebrate our marriage.