Little Black Cloud Over My Head

I have to admit I'm getting a little frustrated with my body's reaction to even a little bit of alcohol. I'm not even pregnant yet or really even TTC and I already feel like I'm on probation :( Last night was my monthly book club and I had 1 count'em...ONE margarita and my temp jumped from 97.06 to 97.66. These high spikes make it difficult to interpret my chart so I've had to stop any alcohol consumption.

I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself because tonight is LOST watching party night and tomorrow is my regular girls night happy hour and it just sucks being the only non drinking person in the group while having to come up with excuses for why you aren't drinking.

I think I'm just in a mood because Amy has been working nonstop so I haven't seen her in a few days, our A/C is broken and I've had an allergy induced headache for 4 days straight.

BLAH! Sorry to be a such a downer.

Family

Thank you everyone for all the well wishes for our July wedding. All the support has made me realize the importance of family and friends. Planning for a baby and this wedding has made me think long and hard about the importance of family. As a child family was very important to me. I lived by my family and it was important to me. It has shaped me to the person I am today.

On the other hand, Melissa was not raised around family. Her extended family lived in Holland while her parents moved to Canada. Although her family lived in Holland, Melissa’s parents made close friends which became family to Melissa. The question I have is should we raise our child by family members or create a family from existing friends? This decision is hard for me. I believe it is so important for our child to have family support around them as they grow up.

My family lives in Oklahoma where I will not even consider raising my child (for obvious reasons). So that leaves Calgary for a possibility. It is hard because Melissa and I love Austin but it is something we may have to consider in the future for our family.

Our special day

We are officially getting married on July 9th. My expectations at first were that Mel and I were going to go by ourselves and get married in Canada. Next, Melissa’s mom, sister, and sister’s boyfriend were going to the wedding. I decided to invite my family even though it was in Canada with no expectations and then…something great happened. My dad decided he would love to go and be apart of our special day.

In my eyes that is the best present anyone could give me. I never thought that anyone of my family would go or even take our wedding seriously and now my dad wants to be apart of our special day. Having him share in this is something I will never forget.

To be honest I was happy knowing that Melissa’s mom and sister were going to participate in our wedding. They are important to me and I care about them. They are family to me and have been for many years. Carly is just like a sister to me and Ineke is like a mom. Having my dad there is like a cherry on top of a sundae. Even though it will be a momentous day it still makes me sad that my entire family is unable to participate. My mom and sister will not be in attendance but having my dad there will help make our day more special. I hope our families know and understand how much it means to us to have them share and celebrate our marriage.

My Rant, My Passion

It’s been a while but I am still here. I am so focused on talking baby stuff and sometimes there isn’t anything to say.

Melissa discussed the possibility of getting married this July in Canada. Some people have been surprised by our desire to get legally married. I find it odd that people are shocked that two people who love each other want to marry. I find some married people take for granted the rights that they have. The desire to get married stems from the normal stuff but also the fact that I am told I can’t and shouldn’t. It drives me crazy to here the other side of the argument against gay marriage. This country is so backwards and hypocritical. So many issues, but it focus on the little things that really don’t matter.

Melissa is Canadian, I am not, and sometimes I am shocked that Melissa wants to live here. She fights so hard to live here while I would pack up my things tomorrow if she wanted to move. Why…..because they would accept me. I know this sounds bad to say but these are my true feelings. I know Canada has certainly has some issues but nothing compared to my birthplace the United States.

However, my home is where my family is, Melissa, Olive, Campbell, and Ivy live in Austin, Texas, and that is the most important thing for me. To be with my family is my priority and if that is in the US or in Canada doesn't really matter. So marrying Melissa in Canada is important to me for many reasons and I can’t wait until we do.

Crickets and Wedding Bells

I should probably start this post off with an explanation of why we haven't posted in a while. A nice long list of we've been so busy, weather here has been too nice to stay inside, etc. But these would just be excuses and the truth of the matter is we've been very lazy bloggers and really have had nothing to write about. We're still tracking cycles and taking vitamins/herbal supplements. That's about the gist of it.

Amy and I finally booked our trip to Canada last week. We are very excited as it will be the first time that we're going in the summer to visit my family. We usually go up every other year for Christmas, but because of the cold weather and the holidays it tends to not feel very vacationy. So this time around we are gong to have 1 full week of vacation, in the summer!

Since we are going to Canada Amy and I have been debating if we should get married while we are there. Even though it doesn't hold any clout here in the States and we already feel like we are married, the main purpose of it would be so that I could change my last name to hers. We discussed it a lot and agreed that since I would be biologically connected to our child that we should have Amy's last name as our family name.

The wedding topic is still up for discussion in our house as to how we are going to pull it off and how involved it is going to be. We'll be sure to keep everyone posted. Since we aren't going until July we can still mull it over some more.

Off Topic Question: Anyone else watching the Sopranos as confused and as disappointed as I am?